What’s Your Dream?
Ever since I was a kid, I have dreamed of travel. I wanted to go to Europe, the Caribbean, Asia, South America. I read travel guidebooks and magazines nonstop.
Somewhere in the poverty and emotional struggle of my teen years and early adulthood the dream got buried under the clutter, the emotional eating, and my resulting obesity. Read more
What Does it Mean to Offer Ourselves Radical Acceptance?
For the last year I’ve been blessed to be working with Bill Baren, a wonderful business and life coach. We talk weekly and he has been by my side throughout the process of bringing NurturingHope.com from a spark of an idea to the actuality of a home for those of us who struggle with compulsive hoarding and eating.
There is a critical, self-loathing voice inside my head, and it seems like it has always been there for as long as I can remember. Perhaps you have one too. It tells me that I’m just not good enough, that maybe I don’t really have my life under control, that maybe I’m just a misstep or two away from living in squalor and filth again, that maybe my eating is already out of control and I’m back on the road to morbid obesity. It tells me that I can’t trust myself, that I have to be self-critical and hard on myself or my life will fall apart again. The voice both creates and expresses a sense of fear and anxiety that can be paralyzing at times.
A month or two ago I was discussing this self-critical voice with Bill. He asked me a question that boggled my mind: “Catherine, what would it take to accept the part of you that does not accept yourself?” At first this question seemed so paradoxical that I could not even comprehend it. My self-loathing voice is like an enemy who is determined to make me miserable, an enemy whom I cannot escape. I desperately wanted to eliminate this part of me, not accept it! Read more